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Disappointment

Well i'm pretty sure everyone has gone through this emotion before. And if you haven't I am so jealous of you because it seems to be happening to me alot lately. First 2 good friends of mine stopped talking to me for I dont know what reason and I try to play it off but the truth is it's eating me alive from the inside. I miss them both truly because they were both a big factor in my life. They supported my music career or whatever you call it and they were both down to hang anywhere anytime. Man just thinking about them is making me smile.....but anyways enough about them. Another dissapointment lately is that a lot of people have cancelled on me I'm not gettin mad or anything it's just it has happened many times in a row and so it feels like a pattern. Honestly it hurts but I don't hold any grudges. Well if you are feeling like I am right now then I have the perfect solution. Now it sounds hard but it's really not....the advice is that you should always have a back up plan that way if something happens with plan A then plan B is nice and ready. It has helped me alot and you should have one for any idea whether you're hanging out with a friend or your major in college. Trust me it'll help



-aph

I wrote this song for the one whose always been there the lord.

Hurt/Played

Well its been awhile since we've talked. I really miss you and to me it seems like you could care less if I even existed. Yeah i know I stopped hitting you up but can you blame me? Everytime we talk you always say "Let me call you back" and never call me back. Its going on 2 weeks since we've talked I'm wondering how you are but at the same time I am really hurt. I dont think Anyones ever played me this bad. I mean you really went all out had me willing to wait for you and you even told me with the most serious/sincere face that you dont lead people on. Well the truth is you dont lead people on.....just me. I'm not going to lie the times we shared were great you made me smile in such a way I will never forget how much we would laugh. And dont think I'm mad at you cause I'm not I just cant believe you did that to me. I mean you never said goodbye you just stopped talking to me altogether....honestly thats pretty messed up of you. An then you had the nerve to say you love me well you obviously that was another lie. And I'm not trying to hurt you or say you're a bad person you're great and again I'm not mad I am just Hurt and I feel like I've been played.


-aph

MUSIC

its a beautiful thing.. its one of my most passionate loves. whenever I'm playing my guitar or piano I just get this feeling that nothing else in the world matters but what I'm singing or playing. I am completely happy at those moments. because the world is a terrible place honestly there's terror happening all around, the economy's out of whack and death is happening everywhere and I think to myself all the time like what is the world coming to? So whenever I think about this I turn to my most faithful girlfriend ever music. I mean shes never let me down and makes me so happy its just amazing I even find myself smiling uncontrollably because its a beautful thing. She makes me want to keep trying in the world and I will because there will always be music.


-aph

Hope

Theres a funny feeling I always get whenever I want something or if I like someone. I always want it to work out, I start picturing everything going perfectly right and like me getting married to the person you know trying to see if everything will work out like I want it to and most of the time it does in my head work out absolutely perfect. but sadly most of the time and matter fact every time it never works out at all. Yeah I know its pretty wack but its life what can you do? So whenever something in my life doesnt go according to plan alot of people think i should give up but I can't because a feeling comes over me like well I dont think I should give up and I should keep trying to make it work no matter whats going on at the time. An most of the time I dont give up like a couple of months ago alot of people didnt believe I could play the guitar and now I can and I believe i'm good for teaching myself. and another example would be what im going through now im talking to this girl and nobody thinks i should go out with her and she rarely shows she wants to be with me but she says it all the time and yes it does hurt and yes everyones telling me its not worth but to me it is i think shes worth it shes an amazing girl and I get a feeling whenever i think of her and that feeling is called hope.

-aph

check out the new video me and my boy D dot Bailey

So this past sunday was one of my best friends 18th birthday and since this bday is one you will remember the rest of your life I really wanted her to feel special because my 18th bday was on the night of prom so when 12am hit i turned 18 and she sung her heart out for me when 12 hit and i havent cried/teared up in such a long time but when she started singing i couldnt hold it back. So after we left prom we got something to eat then we just decided just to go home. but i didnt want to go home so I just crashed at her house. Miriha was the first person i kicked it with on my birthday and she made me smile the whole time even when she took my shorts off lol not in that kind of way but yeah we rarely have those moments so i try to cherish the ones I get and i did. but anyways back to what I was talking about i wanted her to feel special so I thought and thought for days then it finally came to me to have a surprise party at her favorite restaurant with all of her close friends. So the party was a complete success i treated her to some bomb sushi and she was smiling the whole time. but the best part was when I asked her was she surprised and she said yes then I told her it wasnt over because it was not over =). Every year i always write her a poem even if I have a girlfriend I still do it and I wrote one and I read it in front of the whole group. She could not stop cheesin o my God it was so beautiful. alot of people ask why am I so damn nice to everyone and the world is just so mean to me. and i always reply because its moments like at the bday party that makes it worth every second. the ability to make someone smile till it hurts makes me smile. I want all of my friends to feel like they are the most special person in the world because to me they are

-aph

this is a song i wrote for this girl im talking to rite now ummm i explain it in the video but excuse the trash vocals i know they're wack lmao

wellll basically the friends zone to a guy is where chances of being with a girl dissapear. because once your in the friend zone with a girl your going to stay there unless theres some miraculous reason why she takes out of it. so when a girl tells you your like her best friends thats when you learn that she has absolutely no feelings for you what so ever. guys and girls have different perspectives of their "best friend". when a girl thinks of their "best friend" they believe that person is there to listen to their problems, care for them you know stuff like that. now a girl wants a guy who listens to their problems, care for them be there for them in their time of need, but girls never look to there best friend when they're looking for such things. now the guys perspective of the "best friend" is wow this girl knows me well, she can make me laugh, i can spend hours with her and not be annoyed by her, she knows how to make me laugh you know what i think i can really see myself with her. now girls dont think like this at all. now i know girls are probably saying well what if something goes wrong and our relationship will be ruined. well ladies if the guy is truly your best friend and they care bout you that much they would make it work. i mean i know i would. you guys are blinded by the barrier you put up to your best friend and that barrier is called the friend zone.

Have you ever really missed somebody?......and I dont mean like someone you havent seen in months I'm talking about somebody you just saw 5 minutes ago? I mean really think about this question for a minute........I know it doesnt sound like it makes sense but it does to me because I really miss somebody like that. This person Im talking about is amazing to me, the way they walk talk just basically the way they live it just amazes me. They're so optomistic and they always have a smile on their face and its beautiful. I just saw that person not to long ago and I cant stop thinking about them they are constantly on my mind. I mean as much time as i spend with them it just seems like its never enough i just want to be with them constantly and never leave their side. Do you feel that way about someone? Like a piece of you leaves with that person? and even though you spent hours with them when its time to leave you become sad? Well thats because that person is a part of you and when your missing them you're also missing yourself