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Disappointment

Well i'm pretty sure everyone has gone through this emotion before. And if you haven't I am so jealous of you because it seems to be happening to me alot lately. First 2 good friends of mine stopped talking to me for I dont know what reason and I try to play it off but the truth is it's eating me alive from the inside. I miss them both truly because they were both a big factor in my life. They supported my music career or whatever you call it and they were both down to hang anywhere anytime. Man just thinking about them is making me smile.....but anyways enough about them. Another dissapointment lately is that a lot of people have cancelled on me I'm not gettin mad or anything it's just it has happened many times in a row and so it feels like a pattern. Honestly it hurts but I don't hold any grudges. Well if you are feeling like I am right now then I have the perfect solution. Now it sounds hard but it's really not....the advice is that you should always have a back up plan that way if something happens with plan A then plan B is nice and ready. It has helped me alot and you should have one for any idea whether you're hanging out with a friend or your major in college. Trust me it'll help



-aph

I wrote this song for the one whose always been there the lord.

Hurt/Played

Well its been awhile since we've talked. I really miss you and to me it seems like you could care less if I even existed. Yeah i know I stopped hitting you up but can you blame me? Everytime we talk you always say "Let me call you back" and never call me back. Its going on 2 weeks since we've talked I'm wondering how you are but at the same time I am really hurt. I dont think Anyones ever played me this bad. I mean you really went all out had me willing to wait for you and you even told me with the most serious/sincere face that you dont lead people on. Well the truth is you dont lead people on.....just me. I'm not going to lie the times we shared were great you made me smile in such a way I will never forget how much we would laugh. And dont think I'm mad at you cause I'm not I just cant believe you did that to me. I mean you never said goodbye you just stopped talking to me altogether....honestly thats pretty messed up of you. An then you had the nerve to say you love me well you obviously that was another lie. And I'm not trying to hurt you or say you're a bad person you're great and again I'm not mad I am just Hurt and I feel like I've been played.


-aph

MUSIC

its a beautiful thing.. its one of my most passionate loves. whenever I'm playing my guitar or piano I just get this feeling that nothing else in the world matters but what I'm singing or playing. I am completely happy at those moments. because the world is a terrible place honestly there's terror happening all around, the economy's out of whack and death is happening everywhere and I think to myself all the time like what is the world coming to? So whenever I think about this I turn to my most faithful girlfriend ever music. I mean shes never let me down and makes me so happy its just amazing I even find myself smiling uncontrollably because its a beautful thing. She makes me want to keep trying in the world and I will because there will always be music.


-aph

Hope

Theres a funny feeling I always get whenever I want something or if I like someone. I always want it to work out, I start picturing everything going perfectly right and like me getting married to the person you know trying to see if everything will work out like I want it to and most of the time it does in my head work out absolutely perfect. but sadly most of the time and matter fact every time it never works out at all. Yeah I know its pretty wack but its life what can you do? So whenever something in my life doesnt go according to plan alot of people think i should give up but I can't because a feeling comes over me like well I dont think I should give up and I should keep trying to make it work no matter whats going on at the time. An most of the time I dont give up like a couple of months ago alot of people didnt believe I could play the guitar and now I can and I believe i'm good for teaching myself. and another example would be what im going through now im talking to this girl and nobody thinks i should go out with her and she rarely shows she wants to be with me but she says it all the time and yes it does hurt and yes everyones telling me its not worth but to me it is i think shes worth it shes an amazing girl and I get a feeling whenever i think of her and that feeling is called hope.

-aph

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